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Here’s The Thing… Its January 28 again.

It is such a quandary, deciding whether to talk about IT or… not to talk about IT. Do I? Don’t I? Either way, there’s really no way of escaping it. It comes every year. January 28. THE absolute worst day of my life. For the longest time I would just black this day completely outContinue reading “Here’s The Thing… Its January 28 again.”

Things Worth Remembering-A Piece of Hamilton Place History

Last night I sat on the top of my father’s homeplace at a table in a wonderful establishment and was served dinner. People around me laughed and indulged in their own conversations while the bartender hurriedly made cocktails and merrily served the crowd. There were a few familiar faces and strangers with white hair muchContinue reading “Things Worth Remembering-A Piece of Hamilton Place History”

When What Once You Thought, Is No More

And Good Morning! Just as the crocus emerges from under the snow, humans are able to do the same! From underneath the cold, darkness of grief, we are intended to emerge anew. If not, then why do we go through what we do if not to grow. Evolve. Change. Become something more, hopefully better. SheddingContinue reading “When What Once You Thought, Is No More”

Then There Was, A Dog

Apparently, grief is not just reserved for humans. On around his tenth birthday, my best fur friend became gravely ill. He had been losing weight and I knew something was wrong and, in my heart, I also knew there was nothing I was going to be able to do about it. I do not wantContinue reading “Then There Was, A Dog”

Linda

Well, today’s the day. Another milestone reached. Three years. Three years since we all started our new lives into the after… of the before and after. Before today, there was a life projected ahead with a certain electricity that only you could provide. THAT electricity left us that day. It’s been like remembering what thatContinue reading “Linda”

One Day In A Life

It’s that time of year. No, not Christmas. Not birthdays. Not anything… but dove season. BUT, Dove Season. The highlight of my years. It began many years ago when my dad began hosting a hunt. It was small. Almost intimate. Well, it was intimate. Close. The family. Friends. Dad, in his element. Completely relaxed. IContinue reading “One Day In A Life”

Of Hills and Pigs

I have some amazing friends. Friends who have a genuine concern for me. And when I say friends, I mean family too who have behaved as friends looking out for My wellbeing. My growth. My happiness… and my joy. When you whittle it down to the word genuine… or sincere… that list becomes a smallContinue reading “Of Hills and Pigs”

2023

2023. Every year has been a year for some kind of growth. I hope that I can end this one by having grown the most. I have not been able to write for some time. It seems like there was a long time that writing was the only thing that helped. Then there was aContinue reading “2023”

A Divine-ish Comedy

I am walking through a tunnel. A vortex tunnel. But the vortex has shut down. There is no wind. There is no pull toward the vortex anymore. There used to be. It used to be full and fast. It used to be blaring with riches and wildness like a rave out of control. It usedContinue reading “A Divine-ish Comedy”

For Everything, There is a Season

Dear lord. What is it that you want from me in this world? Where is it, I am to be Lord? What is it you shall have me do? Exist? I have absorbed myself into making this place my father gave me a home. It is all I know right now. I have neglected itContinue reading “For Everything, There is a Season”